walkin awayy-

2006-08-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

im screwing up my sleeping timings again. =X
think im suffocating underneath my own thoughts.
arghs. damn. whatever.
screwyscrewy.

let the rain fall down.

2006-08-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

I NEED TO PROCLAIM.
I HATE MONDAYS.
no, my monday wasnt THAT horrible.
i just HATE HATE HATE monday.
n school.

ps. i desprately need a ear piece. anybody has a well working one to spare?
and also in desprate NEED of a chem text. lost it within less than ONE month of my 2nd one i bought this year.

go me.

2006-08-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

you make me feel out of my element
like i'm walkin' on broken glass
like my worlds spinnin' in slow motion
and you're movin' too fast

were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react
the chemicals react

you make me feel out of my element
like i'm drifting out to the sea
like the tides pullin' me in deeper
makin' it harder to breathe

kaleidoscope of colors
turning hopes on fire, sun is burning
shining down on both of us
don’t let us lose it (don’t let us lose it...)

were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah

we lived
we loved
we hurt
we joked
we're right
we're wrong
we're weak
we're strong
we lived to love

but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
watch the chemicals react
and just like that
the chemicals react
-CHEMICALS REACT; ALY N AJ

2006-08-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

blogging is losing its appeal.

for the first time ever,
i think i agree with huang.
shes right.
im confused.

2006-08-19T19:20:00.000+08:00

x country. =)
shall blog later.

2006-08-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

spent the night watching evangelion again. aft 2++ years. woots.

2006-08-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

its where we go downhill again.
or maybe just me.
playing worse n worse n worse.
ermerm. really sorry u kena-ed frm him instead. =X
somehow, this aint the only thing going downhill ehs.
im going down.
woots.
lets see how long i can cling on.
cheerios.

2006-08-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

esplanade lib.
marina.
=)

keep kena-ing frm tchers todae. for ~~fake~~ mc, belt, socks.
eng was fun.
lunched at pp.
just realised how much i travelled today.
=x
came home n my dad had a go at me.
chems tmr n i really cant be bothered with this one.
my brain seems to have had an emergency shut down.
out of things to write.
toodles.

squeal squeal squeal!
think thou think thought.
the intricate layers of lies.

2006-08-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

I GIVE UP.

2006-08-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

oohno.ohhell.ahcrap.
the queen's back.
the difference.

one of my ear piece's seems to have go bust. =X did i blast it too loud? cant be.
my flower vase in my room is in ruins. partly shattered. curtains powered by winds caused it. along with it went the poor little once-cute bumble bee. currently still hanging arnd without a leg n wing. but i either refuse to chunk them into the bin, or simply m too lazy. oh. just realised the bee is only left with HALF a leg. poor dear.
~~let she who-keeps-ruins crumble. woots.~~
amaths.joyOHjoy!
damnit.

2006-08-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

lets run awayyy. =))

2006-08-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

omg.
my amaths is in a DIRE state of panic.
just realised i duno how to do at all.
damn trigo.
wheres my tutor when i need him?! arghs.
even so, im still watch POT online. =X
wad the hell m i doinggggg.

2006-08-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

high noon, till sunset, till sunrise, till sunset.
WE ARE FINALLY DONE.
didnt really do much for my part anw.
woots.
the night was funfun, other than it being too cold, hard n squeezy.
im somehow not exactly dead yet.
WAS dead just now.
ahahahas.
I DUN WANNA GO SCH TMRRR.
=X

2006-08-10T02:12:00.000+08:00

ahahahas
its 2am
decided to make our presence better felt by staying over.
all of us are dying here
everyones dead
n geogy isnt doneeeee.
wthhhh.
not like we didnt try anw.
two comps.
5 retards. (ok, make it 4, im not. =)))
n theres still trng tmr
xinxuan
stop tou kanning n stop talking to urself.
zibi de.
brain's dead
wad a way to spend the NATIONS birthday
i give up blogging
toodles.

hrms. im strangely not tired
just dead
contradicts
arghs.
cranky-ness
this is pekchek-ing
back hurts
blast music into my own ear
=X

2006-08-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

im sick of this place.
ohwhee.
screwyscrewy.
towns N seven11s are screwyscrewy too.
x))
~~ohfuck.killme. oh n u win.CONGRATS!!its in ur hands now.~~
this is where i dun belong.

2006-08-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

ahahahas.
warning.
dont come near/talk to me.
im hazardous.
i burn.
i can also manage to make you seem insignificant.
i etch memoirs, wonderfully distorted they are.
i even seem to pretend to care!
i disappear.
i keep silent.
im harmful eh.
woots.

2006-08-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

it haunts me just as much alright.

2006-08-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

ANY NICE N KIND SOUL WANTS TO VOLUNTEER TO DO ME LAYOUT N COLOURING?

2006-08-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

YES its a new blogskin
YES i know there is something wrong with all the colours
REALISE its late
IM SCREWED for the CAs tmr
YES i shall go off to bed now.
DAMNS im tiredd. =X
NIGHTS WORLD!
(big fonts. =)) hahas. shall spare everybody the trouble of squirming their eyes for the sake of my tinie weenie wordings, for the NIGHT that is. )
TOODLES! =)

2006-08-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?
Dr Meredith Grey. Grey's Anatomy

2006-08-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

at ~~100miles/hr~~ 50km per hour,
if only i did crash n die.
when i yearned those cars would come closer than those mere misses,
of thy every turn at the junctures,
led to dead-end.
guess im really wrong eh.

that came out of a innocent cycling trip, where i cycled blindly, almost got knocked several times n got lost.

forgot to bring home tys again!! arghs. n im seriously nowhere ahead as of today n 3 days ago, next to nothing(for the tests tmr lah).
the prospect of this week isnt that bad though. somehow, thanks to singapores bdae (thought i ought to be more patriotic.XD ).

2006-08-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

i need a new day to begin.
n the end of this day.
cant stand it.

2006-08-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

its that point of the term where i just wanna pon sch every single day, again.

2006-07-30T20:46:00.000+08:00

got chased out of the library again todae.
forth time now! (like its somethin to be proud off =X )
woots.
same sunday of 2 weeks.
slacked around again. but i know somehow next week will be diff.
OHNO.

Daylight on my shoulder
Makes me feel alive
You kept me standing in your shadow
And it’s a cold cold place to hide

I’m running away from this messed up place
I’m breaking free, yeah

I’m tired of staring at the sun
Can’t stand the way you put my eyes so I can’t see
Stealing every breath I breathe
You push me into overdrive
And I don’t need this kind of light coz now I’m done
You took everything while I was staring at the sun
-staring at the sun; rooster
if my words do creat such impacts. i think i'd rather shut up. im sorry for being such an ass. but i do need to stop hurting u, unintentionally.

2006-07-29T22:01:00.000+08:00

why is it that i never do realise what the hell i did?!

2006-07-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

CIP at bukit gombak
scorching sun
then rained donkeys and gorillas
ponchos n floods
hill n looong mrt rides
orchard n bag hunting.
walked n walked SOMEMORE.
homed and tuition.
rain water n me dun go.
headache n me comes.
SHAGGED!!
~~of hate n angst.~~

2006-07-28T19:40:00.000+08:00

omg. im really really very sorry oli!!!!
million apologies. |:
~~omg.imfcuked.bleurghs. YOUmadeMEthePERFECTFOOL.THANKYOU.~~

2006-07-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

boos.
long-ated day. sch was slack.
EAST COAST PARK, stupid geog. stupid-ER GAYS. woooots. =)))
trng at sch. trng at tp. was super PEKCHEK and soakeddd. =X
finally got homeSWEEThome.
WAHAHAS.

~~I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL!~~
kicks.whines.groans.screams.AHH.

2006-07-24T19:58:00.000+08:00

wahhaas. this is so cute.
chink oral was screwed to the MAX.
forgive me. i think im high due to the excess coffee i forced down my throat, ahem, partially due to dehydration.
omg. i played damn suckily during trng today.
came home n went all screwy with my mommy again.
wahahahas.
i need to start GEOGging SOON.
results are my bid for freedom AND cash after all. so i think ive gotta at least scrap a pass.

OMFG. i passed chink oral. but by sympathy points.
hurs.
=X

[took out pw. took out whatever i wanted too. getting lazy. =X]

2006-07-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

woke up EARLY today, but fell partially back to sleep.
went for breakfast, spent hell loads of my mom's money randomly n she being the nice ahem atm paid for everything. im feel bad. bleahhhs.
ok then. supposedly went to study at the library, switched location to far far north. uber amusing. was with my fren, my frens fren, n my frens frens fren.
it was just, nice. then frens,frens,fren drove me home. almost puked. wahahas.
came home n got skewered by mommy. =X
but awells.
geog seems to be beyond point of salvation now.
OH. n so does CHINK ORAL.
wahahas.

~~hell.i dun wanna go back to school tmr.~~
i guess. its the point of no return.

2006-07-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

~~god.ihateschool.~~

ok, other than that, omFg. the battle of the bands. -wooots!
too tired to go into details.
btw, congrats cam n BELL!! =)) plus the rest of the band.
got lost with cheryl AGAIN! +wj this time. went all the way to clementi, where the macs green tea tasted like HEAVEN. though its brand was also the heaven n earth tea. =X
i have trng in EIGHT hours time. tmr wake up confirm zhao xia. but its worth it i guess. hehhs. ohoh. n when i got out of the mrt just now, i realised, i was actually on the last train home. otherwise i would have been like stranded! wahhas. so yea.

giving mep concert a miss tomorrow. adrenaline level running low, n i doubt it would last till tmr. anyone wants my ticket? free also can. =))

thanks for the burger even if i didnt really eat it. =))
SWOOOOONS!

2006-07-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneath the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love, my beautiful love

Larger than the moon, my love for you
Worlds collide as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe our love will catch like fire
As it burns through me

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right

My beautiful love
-beautiful love; the afters.

very old song. but awells. =X

2006-07-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

y am i such a idiot.

2006-07-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

arghs
why is everyone studying chem.
~~and yet some more lies. helpppp.~~

2006-07-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

theres no time for us
theres no place for us
what is this thing that builds our dreams,
yet slips away from us
who wants to live forever.
-who wants to live forever; breaking benjamin

just want to put something up for this dying blog.

2006-07-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

;like it matters anyway.

thinkin of opening my blog again. soon i guess. but i have to filter off some posts first.

laladeedeedummm.

2006-07-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

i need to get out of this place
; this nightmare.

i got to be kidding myself.
impossible is SOMETHING.

i await miracles too.

2006-07-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

maybe one day,
~~i'll be able to convince myself that all these HAHAS are actually genuine.~~ AHAHAS.

i need reassurance.

;the beatiful disaster.

2006-07-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

wow.
that was impactful.

screwyscrewy.

2006-07-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

perhaps, they were the numerous disappointments.

is there gonna be a change for the better?
cos this waiting aint helping.

2006-07-09T20:29:00.001+08:00

-SCREAMS.-

2006-07-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

ooh. despite wadevers left of my earth that i crashed,
i saw some glimmer of humanity today. =))
was on the train, standing until my legs felt like dying,ok, thats not the point, besides that, some old couple walked in, n stood there with huge plastic bags. i was like n no ones giving up their seats?! n someone did soon after. as in like, u see the joy on the faces of the old couple was like, =))) n the guys who gave up their seat was not say some nerd or anythin. rather cute acutally(only one of them though).
then was on the way home, cos it was raining, this old lady slipped n feel, ahem, rather ungracefully. then the ahmas beside her couldnt carry her up for some funny reason, so this 2 guys infront like hurried up to them n helped her up. woots.

ok i duno y. but its just, out of the cruelty of everything happening arnd, its just nice to see such things.

ok now. back to my own cold harsh world.
-stabs stabs STABS!-
n then i die. woots. =)
ive got no right to feel ehs.
damnit

2006-07-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

i think its nice to be a shadow.
simple n dark
comes, goes n changes as it likes
void of emotions
doesnt even have a need for a happiness nor love.
can neither be destroyed n broken.
silent n undemanding
feels no pain
sheds no tears
n just simply there.
away frm all the hate and insanity
desolated frm the lies n false facades
no wishes no desires.
no hopes n dreams.
neither past nor future.
without memories and nightmares.
save frm the cruelty of this earth
that serene n placid thingy.
fascinating.
=X

2006-07-06T21:03:00.001+08:00

the guilt's killing me

2006-07-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

blogs dead
but im too lazy to blog
hate sch
gahhhs.
taa.

2006-06-25T22:40:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhs
i DUN WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!
stupidstupiddddd.
~~wads this sense of fear?~~
unprepared-ness
somebody shoot me.
=X

2006-06-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel like blogging
or changing my blogskin.
arghs.
somethings wrong with the night.
n i lost my mood to blog.
whee.
=X

2006-06-20T00:18:00.001+08:00

i think im drunk on mosquito repellent. almost fell down the stairs just now. =X wahahas.
koooty. hehhs.

tomorrow. (or rather, later today)
=)))

2006-06-19T00:25:00.000+08:00

i was reading thru a joint blog of my,oli,n shil. gosh. we sounded SO childish n ahem TWITTY. n DAMN I MISS THEM! =))
then i was reading thru some of my archieves. how, embarrasing. absolutely koot-ifying. =X

[edit. 1237]
i think i change my mind. only the march+++ posts were embarrassing. the later months arent THAT bad. =X
ok. i shld shut up.

2006-06-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

i think im rather stupidly trng my hols away again.

n i think im losing my mind.
whee. =)))

2006-06-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

no words can express how sorry im.

2006-06-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

days seem to be passing with a growing LACK of exhirlation. hols have been passing alright and fun enough. but its getting rather tiring. ok, maybe this is just frm a tired me aft spending 2 whole days in aviva and watching the stupid world cup last night for fun. and amongst all the slacking, there always has to be a constant nagging at the back of my mind to ~~study~~ and horrifyingly, ~~that schs gonna open.~~

my mood is swinging like nothing todae.
ahhhs.
well, then let me fall again. im tired of flying.

Cause everyobody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
And even when i'm scared i have to try to fly
Sometimes i fall
But ive seen it done before
I got to step outside these walls
I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things i really want
You had me to afraid to ask
And as i look ahead of me
Cry and pray for sanity
These walls can't be my haven
These walls can't keep me safe here
Now i guess i got to let them down
these walls; teddy geiger

2006-06-10T12:01:00.000+08:00

yay.
home sweet home.
came home half hour ago.
heading out again.
sheesh. =X

2006-06-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

omfg.
i feel super haunted.
shall blog abt it in BROAD DAYLIGHT instead.
i think im going crazy.
-screams-
this is a paragraph of wads haunting me:
The tune is strangely gripping, and the lyrics capture an odd longing for death. The sad and monotonous song easily entices one into feeling depressed. It's Gloomy Sunday - the Hungarian "suicide anthem".

really shldnt have looked for it.
curiousity kills the cat.

2006-06-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bid for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah
-meant to live; switchfoot.

2006-06-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

i just cant get what transpired over the last 3 days out of my mind.
~~the lingering guilt. =X~~

2006-06-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

realised its been decades since i updated. or at least posted wad i typed. everything i typed lately has all been dumped in the drafts section. awells i got nothing to say here. one week into the hols. ive went from right on the top deck, till sunken.
hrms. virgin jaywalker! looks like we either sink together or take turns to sink eh? im damn sick of sinking in the damned sea water.
ok. i shall stop here. no intention abt blogging abt the week. so happie missing me ppl. =))

im so that-banned-word.
my hands and knees are bruised n im crawling back to you.
begging for the 2nd chance.
are u gonna let me in.
i was running from the truth.

[919pm]oh. i forgot to add. no trng tmr. =)) gosh. footwork+drills nowdays sucks. and im super sick of organising that stupid bbq (sry snrs!). got 3 days to salvage it. n thankgod sherms back. i miss my dear old capt.

2006-05-24T22:26:00.000+08:00

i GIVE UP trying alright.
on somethin thus hopeless.

the dread n hate. -curses-

2006-05-24T21:06:00.000+08:00

omg. i juz finished packing my room.
i came home today and was horrified to see the state of mess. so the ahem neat n tidy me decided to clean up. =) think my maid will get a shock tmr. hehhs.
damn tireddddddd now. trng was tiring plus i was in a damnnn blurrrr state. =X but was rather fun. chels n her stupid fishy song make me canot do my pushups! oh. n i really cant play singles for NUTS. almost die-d. stupiddddiie.
other than trng, the rest of the day was crap.

2days.. TAHANNNNNtahan.
screw schooollll.

eightdays.
hopeisurvive. =X

2006-05-20T01:57:00.000+08:00

its 143am. i just got home and bathed. feel so clean.

anyways, thanks everybody for all the birthday and well-wishes. n presents. frm the ex niners, to the current eighters, to the rest of the ppl frm tk, and outside tk(who surprisingly rmbed), sir, and erms, the team.
esp thanks to cheryl n weihui. for the night and worst ever cake (if u even call it a cake). =))

my brain is stoned. oh. and i have a phobia of cruises now. will never go on one unless u sails down the safest oceanic area. perhaps the singapore river would be adpt.

not like this birthday was actually worth celebrating anyway.hardly call it a happy one thru all the 'happie' wishes anyway. arghs. wadever.my eyes are red frm lack of sleep and ~~tears~~

2006-05-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

[9++pm] i keep coming into this page with full intention to blog only to hop out moments later onto some other page.

[1213am]ok ended up too lazy to blog.

AND..
im fifteen15. =))

2006-05-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

i alighted at the wrong stop again today. complete idiot-ness. but all the busstops arnd the area i was supposed to stop at looked the same! not my fault! =X shessh.
second half of the day went better.. that is aft a halfhour long wait for a bus which i almost wanted to scream in frustration.

stop talking like u know me. u dont. and besides, i cant bring myself to care about wad u are saying anymore. neither would i let u get me down.
hell. if only it was as simple as it sounds.

yay. the oncoming sunday looks like a lazy n relaxing one. =)) mother's day. hope it goes well void off all the quarrells n arguments. i want a rest, and stop travelling arnd sgpore.

damns. i really miss u.
i aint wanna let u go.

2006-05-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

actually planned to blog last night, but came home very late, soaked to the skin n tired. i was thinking abt blogging today. but im feeling damn sleepy once again. 1046 n im sleepy- pathetic-ness! but shall brave an attempt to update my blog. (it is rather long actually. which usually turns out to be boring. so i'd advise u not to read it.)

ystd. omg it was so embarrassing. went to cityhall for dinner in a oversized shirt n shorts. so malu. at first i thot they wanted to go beach or something, so i didnt mind meeting them aft trng.. then the venues changed frm pp to east coast to bugis. lastly, when i was already on my way to bugis then it became cityhall cafe cartel. i was like do i look that rich?! and then i got conned by oli and went to rafflesmrt. kunehhh. dinner was such an embarrassing affair. plus who i met there. gosh. n luckily lq saved us with her NETS. heh. came home to pouring rain n the SOS i called for went unanswered, so i had a LOVELY walk home with rain as company. love rain. =))

this morn. went to do ss. spent less than 15mins on it and some ppl had to leave.. heh. not that i even expected to do anythin. i declare: i GIVE UP on ss. anyways. played xbox at jacqs house. had a great time crashing race cars until damage was CRITICAL. hehh. so loser. then went to lqs house to bake cookies (erms actualli cos i had to return her her ezlink cos my went flat ystd, but i decided to stay n mess up her house). cookies are fun. with hell loads of sugar which im horrified with. =X by the time we, me syaz oli lq nat(who cant crack eggs for nuts=))), finished the first batch, we were TIRED. had pizzahut lunch. hahas. cookies turned out burnt. 2nd batch was better n much faster. my heart broke! -heartpain- then came brownies. the sugar content was WORSE. gosh.
more ppl came thereafter. we juz racked the rest of the house, slacked, ate, contributed to noise pollution i wonder how the hell her neighbours could tahan, ate, played cards, ate.
arghs. i m determined (for NOW) to train hard tmr n burn all the cookies i ate today off! sinfulsinful. sheesh. HELP!

hrms. i realised how carried away i got with typing. tired tiredddd.
shld juz come home aft trng tmr n SLEEEEEP. or at least try n come home earlyyyy.

maybe like u said, i dun understand u at all.
i fail(ed), havent i. imsorry.

~~such a loser i m.~~

2006-05-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

i feel damn restless.
like ive got nothing to do.
i made a smiley out of MnMs
and i ate my smile away.

2006-05-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

hmms. im n have been blasting linkinpark almost the whole night now.. and most of the time, i have just sat here n stone. until the music lulls me to sleep. n i keep stirring to find physics has been once again, pretty much untouched.

just one bad day.

~~screw school.arghs.~~

crawling in my skin
these wounds, they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming, confusing
this lack of self control i fear is never ending
controlling
i cant seem
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence im convinced
that theres just too much pressure to take
ive felt this way before
so insecure
discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting, reacting
against my will i stand beside my own reflection
its haunting how i cant seem.
theres something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming, confusing
this lack of self control i fear is never ending
controlling
-crawling; linkinpark

cant wait for june hols.
but i tink i'd die waiting.
3(or less) more weeks. =X

2006-05-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

how chronical.
i bet theres 3 ppl other there out to punch me.
if they'd even bother to.
well, that makes 4 of us together in this bad mood. =X
muz tmr be monday?! arghs.

2006-05-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

arghs. such nights are horrible.
wads wrong with the earth.
spare me the hatred part of stories.
im sick of it.
sick of hating, of everything.
oh. did i mention?
i hate you.
imagine wad it would be like to watch ur world come undone. thanks man.

Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark Atlantic sky
Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time
And the eyes get red in the back of your head,
this place will make you blind
Put it all behind me and I'll be just fine
Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
There's nothing real for them to see here
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it
-back home; yellowcard

imu =)

2006-05-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

i was thinking over the phrase frm my last post.
when dreams werent impossible.
n aft reading somethin over the net sometime ago.
it made me think of tkbadmintoncdiv05.
n how things are so different now. everythings lacking in every aspect.
bittersweet times they were. when i could safely call us a TEAM. i dont know abt now anymore. no offence or anything ppl, but im sure to a certain extend, u do agree.

reminisce.

arghs.
i wanna watch the planes fly past again.
i wanna spend a whole night stoning at the airport again.
i wanna make those stupid attempts to sneak into erms. places again.
i want to..

(RANDOM)
its been said that in life, many people will disappoint you.
and now, now im starting to think that those people that i thought for sure would never disappoint me,
maybe they never even existed in the first place.

i'll take my chances.
maybe, perhaps, i guess so.

2006-05-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

i remember the days before all of this happened.
before it all fell apart.
do you remember those days?
promises meant something back then.
friendships were forever.
dreams werent impossible.
yes, i remember those days sometimes.

and then i wake up.

this thing has no meaning whatsoever.
juz wanted to post this.

2006-05-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

hrms. i think im abandoning this blog for some time except perhaps a few short posts here and there. other than that i shall blog when i have the mood.

takkaire world. =))

2006-04-30T11:54:00.000+08:00

i spent sooo much time travelling ystd. 2 car rides. 1 taxi. 6 bus rides. and very long time waiting for bus.
wad a waste of time.
ended up reaching home at 1120.

n now im blank.
gonna spend so much time travelling again todae. shessh.
shall blog again soon.

bye world. =))

2006-04-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

i dun wanna go back to sch tmr. =X
slacked the whole weekend away.

fridae was interesting.

sat was even more interesting. other than a few penguin stunts (according to cam) here and there, which included tripping over a drain n falling flat. kunehhh =X trng was fun until.. n project was funfun. wahahs. i dun think we spent a total of 10mins doing anythin productive at all. made certain plans for the june hols-yayyed.

today woke up damn early n went to the airport. saw david there. so weird. were making handsigns cos of funny reasons. mac breakfast. came home n slept all the way till noon then went to mp library to meet sam lena n cam. didnt accomplish anythin cos i couldnt tahan the headache. n for yet anotther funny reason all of us had headaches. but it was fun fun. =)
bus trip home was horribly horrendous. still feeling rather crappy now, -feels like puking n the comp screen is some how making fuzzy turns n shakes-

i'd rather just give up this whole terms results.

i want to lead my life the way i want. not hindered by wad i dread. i hate waking up knowing that the day or week is gonna suck. got enough of that for the past 2 years. all i want is for a better 2 years ahead. sometimes its like ive drowned myself so far im lost now without a direction. i hope im making the right choices. enough of rubbish.
something ive learnt frm cheryl aft so long is, enjoy now, panic later. which is preciesly wad shes doing now. cheong like mad. but thats fun. at least i would be more motivated to study. unlike now. anyway for the past 3 years i have never ever done well in term 2. so y change the cycle. =) and anw wy also made quite some lot of sense when she told pang not to study so hard so early cos by the time the Os come u'd be super sian of studying. how. inspiring.
of cos when say the next geog/ss/chem or wadever test comes, i'd still make futile attempts to study n panic there aft when i realise OHSHIT! i got 5 more chapts to study n i got bare minimum hours left. but owells. somehow. studies arnt everythin are they.ok, ones future may depend on it. BUT..
HRMS. i juz realised i side-tracked a hell lot. but im in the mood for ranting. so pardon me. n neither did i force anyone to read this anyway.

(I STILL DUN FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCH TMR! bleahhs.)

im trying to adopt a postitive outlook towards stuff in general. i cant deny that whenever shit happens, i would get brought down. but not like i can do anythin much to stop it. life isnt that bed of rose. even if it is, there are still thorns. (this is getting corny. n i m trying to stop qing frm doing amaths cos i didnt do it. penguin..) n anyway. i shall try n keep things on this blog on light notes. all the rest of the thrash/tears are on the other side somewhere.
im losing my patience as well as passion for that one thing that used to be oh=so-important to me. period(no. NOT menopause). notice the USED. i need someone or something to rekindle my fire for it.

(gosh. my rooms feeling like a oven without my aircon.) n wow. this has been one long post which has by far taken me over an hour. =X

shall go pack n off to bed. if i manage to even fall asleep aft how long ive slept todae..

`when the world feels like its full on strangers;
this wait for destiny just wont do.

2006-04-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

cold night.
ss is feeling screwed.
this has been one verh very screwed week though. but somehow aft all the screwy things, it still seems rather funny. chem song presentation was HORRIBLE. i forgot all the lyrics. but it was rather fun considering that we almost wanted to juz give it up before that. then had eng debate todae. i had no idea wad the hell i was doing up there at all, without any notes in the first place ~~n i suck at debate can?!~~ my speech was KNS. so maluuuu. didnt have any idea wad i was reading half the time, n i tink i pulled my group down. aft recess came lit presentation. nothin bad could really happen since all we had to do is stand there n bore the class with the endless rubbish abt nightmare, men of straw.
chem n lit finally over. wheee. :))

the workshop today was amusing. complete waste of 3hrs, but i'd rather juz go tmr n waste another 3hrs of course, more importantly, ~~skip trng~~. i think we spent the whole time talking n eating away n the speaker hates us for it. wahahas.

brain-dead.

now everything's got meaning, the meanings bring me down
im watching as a screening of my life plays out.
like a broken record, stuck before a song
a million beginnings, none of them the one
-nature's law; embrace

you can run all your life, all mine i will chase

2006-04-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.

i think im high on coffee. =)))
(though certainly not physics. =X )

i'd be there. believe me.

2006-04-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

interesting 2 days.
fri.
woke up bright n early. slacked arnd n talked until i fell asleep again.. n it was raining cats n pigs when i woke up. loverain. loved such a day where i get to slack in such nice weather. but had to go to pk's house for lit. which was a waste of time actualli. decided to malu ourselves n head to orchard aft that in shirt, shorts, n slippers. gosh. didnt even know wad we were doing there.
todae.
i juz had zero mood to train n was in a ----- mood due to something n blahh. escaped off rather early. post trng was nice. hahas. slacked away somewhere for a few hours. then rushed home for tuition. tuition wasnt as killer as i thought.
so im slacking here again now. whee.

look at the stars;look how they shine for u. =))

2006-04-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

one season comes and one season goes.
from the exhilaration of winning; disappointments frm losing; to effed frm screwing up;
frm all times with that we really wanted to win so much; and to certain times we(no. not we, I)'d give up.
through all the wins n losses, tears of joy or disappointment, there have been learning points n countless realisations. plus the many times i juz felt like some pathetic loser.
that was one year's work, trng n sweat.
it feels rather sudden. all over. from jan to now april. a 3 mnth long tournie, frm prelimaries, to zone semis and finals. to nationals top 16. n finally top 8. n who knows, same time this year, though hopefully NOT, cos i really want to be in the top 4 next year, we would be in the 4 snrs place like todae, hrms. it being the end of the 4 year jounry. n blah blah. -wonders-

the new season's beginning soon. i feel so mixed with emos. on reflection upon todays game, sophie was right, i'd want to play a game in which i wont come out n cry like i did frm the last match. but i juz couldn't achieve wad i wanted. i wasnt able to overcome that particular factor(s). but i've got to say, i accept the loss. it wasnt a completely bad match. we did fight, juz perhaps, not hard enough nor wells, i duno.
one thing i really wanted, was to help May play the best n final game, for a memoriable n enjoyable one. i guess we(or I) juz couldnt do it. couldnt finish off our lead due to simple n dumb mistakes n a total lack of stamina.

the feeling is particularly of guilt of how i disappointed May esp throughout this whole tournament. YC(who has led the team well into the nationals). and of cos, cheryl n ahbah. didnt manage to make it to the top 4, nor win pl. ~~ruining the tk bdiv legacy of 10 over years.~~

as for the following year, which seems a mile away,competition is gonna be damn stiff. either we make, or we break. gahhs. that doesnt sound very pleasant
i have my hopes n dreams, it being my last year. but somehow, i juz duno how im gonna pull thru. i have my doubts, fears, uncertainties.
though i really hate tournies and their pressures and stress, together with the neglection of studies, somehow, i just really want to be playing in the nationals top 4 next year, with really hopefully, one united team.

that however is juz my dream. a saying goes: dreams dun come true. yet, there is another one: dreams DO come true.

'wish upon a shooting star

(wow. i took abt 1hr to finish this post.)

cheerup u. =)

2006-04-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

hrms. found this among my drafts i saved by never ever posted. ok maybe i did. but im dun really recall.

some nice but long poem im found frm somewhere sometime ago.
enjoy.

Please Hear What I'm Not Saying
Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear
for I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.

Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
but don't be fooled,
for God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command
and that I need no one,
but don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.

But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only hope,
and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
But I don't tell you this. I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,
will not be followed by love.
I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
that you'll laugh, and your laugh would kill me.
I'm afraid that deep-down I'm nothing
and that you will see this and reject me.

So I play my game, my desperate pretending game,
with a facade of assurance without
and a trembling child within.
So begins the glittering but empty parade of masks,
and my life becomes a front.
I tell you everything that's really nothing,
and nothing of what's everything,
of what's crying within me.
So when I'm going through my routine
do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying,
what I'd like to be able to say,
what for survival I need to say,
but what I can't say.

I don't like hiding.
I don't like playing superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the blank stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings--
very small wings,
very feeble wings,
but wings!

With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
I want you to know how important you are to me,
how you can be a creator--an honest-to-God creator--
of the person that is me
if you choose to.
You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,
you alone can remove my mask,
you alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic,
from my lonely prison,
if you choose to.
Please choose to.

Do not pass me by.
It will not be easy for you.
A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.
The nearer you approach to me
the blinder I may strike back.
It's irrational, but despite what the books say about man
often I am irrational.
I fight against the very thing I cry out for.
But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls
and in this lies my hope.
Please try to beat down those walls
with firm hands but with gentle hands
for a child is very sensitive.

Who am I, you may wonder?
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet
and I am every woman you meet.

Charles C. Finn
September 1966

2006-04-09T21:06:00.000+08:00

i tink im high. hahahas. =))))
wheeee.
im stuck. hrms. neverminds.
i dun wanna go sch tmr. =X

iloveyou!!=)

2006-04-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

hrms. i have finally decided to update.
n im juz gonna ramble wadever comes to mind. dun bother waste ur time reading.

its been a coldcoldcold day. n thanks to camelia who didnt know her way arnd her neighbourhood, she led me in search of steph n siqi in pouring rain only to find a sheltered way back. -punch- was rather frozen during the project, not that i did anythin (according to someone- wadever lahs), n i didnt get to change out until my tuition ended. im still very cold now.

i didnt go for trng todae. feel so bad, esp when this comin weeks matches are so impt. its like so 50-50. if we dun make it this tues, then i really dun see any hope for thurs's match. so yea. we have to win on tues. oh n we werent slaughtered by sports sch as badly as i expected we would.
hrms. i juz realised that IF(really hope it isnt) we dun make it past this week, it will be the last week for the snrs already. it will be wad they have trained for for the past 4 years. its like wow, ohkay. and if we dun make it, it will be like, train so hard for 3+++ years and u onli make it to top 4..? thinkin of trngs without them is funny, n trng with the jnrs aft that seems even more funny/weird. not that im saying its a bad thing. its juz weird. well, juz hope next year would be a better year, compared to all those ~~shit~~stuff frm the past year.

damns. im stuck. brain juices dried up- instantly.

urms. basically this week has been filled with rubbish that i wont bother talkin abt. hope next week would be better.

sometimes i wish some ppl would juz shut up. arghs.

we'd make it thru. =))
imu.

2006-04-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

i’ve given up on giving up slowly.

thankYOU!=))

2006-04-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

i hate this feeling of helplessness.
somethings wrong with the night.
or maybe its juz me.

2006-04-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

did i juz make a big mistake?
stupid me.

was listening to this song juz now;
here comes the rain again,
falling frm the stars,
drenched in my pain again.
becoming who we are.
as my memory rests.
it never forgets wad i lost.
wake me up when sept ends.

2006-03-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

whee. ilovethreeEIGHT.

sportsday.cheerleading.mass dance.threeeight.n everyone else.

~~trng is demoralising. the feeling of being dead n tired.=X~~

CHEERUP you! =)
its not the end of the world!

I lost my head
You couldn't come
This loss to my brain almost feels like a gun
You lost your head
I couldn't come
This loss to my brain almost feels like a gun
Whoa whoa

I told the angels
Cant stay in heaven
I asked the devil
If we cut out the bed well then we?d have nothing left
Like I cut up your angels
Yeah you stabbed me to death
-cut up angels; the used.

2006-03-30T19:53:00.000+08:00

here we leave today and enter the world of yesterday, tomorrow and fantasy.

2006-03-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

shall be another random rant/post.

lessons todae were alright. ohyea. emaths ca was screwed though. didnt know calculators were not allowed. (OMG! i juz saw a HUGE spider on my window. i m not kidding.) did damn corny stuff in emaths (i think). was trying to get my msg across to fezra who sat right the other end of the class. we tried mouthing, hand signals which then later turned to writing down and flashing it-er on foolscap that is. while doing that, cheryllim saw me and gave me the wad-the-hell-are-u-doing!?-look. ended up laughin so hard i didnt bother listening for the rest of the period. (ohshit! i juz realised we have emaths hw. oH! we are skipping emaths tmr! but then again, i tink we are missing out damn alot tmr again. 3 periods is quite alot to miss. bleahhs.)
eng was also very amusing. the EGO party. heh.

(im being damn paranoid over THAT spider in my room. no idea where it is. -shivers- )

went for lunch with siqi n steph. and made big plans to come home and sleeeeep the aftnn away. i reached home, put my bag down, unpacked and wadever else, turned on my comp and signed in.
1min later.
phone rings.
and 5mins later, im running anrd my house looking for my trng stuff. this is sad mans, didnt get my sleeeeeep. trng with xinmin was alright, played games nonstop. quite some probs here and there. but the final game with yc was so close, 16-17. just couldnt get the last point. hrms yea.

i came home all tired and didnt bother to do any work. ended up just slacking away..

match against sengkang tmr. somehow, i dun really feel different.. know all the tension will start settling in tmr, esp when we reach tamp.. arghs.

(im still keeping my eyes WIDE on the look out for that damned spider. ohnoo.)

2006-03-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

was reading ystd's random post. realised how crap it is.

~~arghs. how could i be so stupid??!!!!?! damnit.~~

2006-03-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

randommmm.

whatifwedunevenmakeittotop8?
wadificantfindtheforgivenessisought?
wadifiscrewup?
wadifeverythingwasjuzalie?
wadifihadntsaidndonewadeverimregrettingnow?
wadifijuzdunwannagiveadamn.
wadifidundowellenoughforthemthisterm?
wadifijuzjumpeddownthatbuildingthere.
wouldifinallybefree?
wadifiranaway?
wadifthatsomeonecame?
wadifthatsomeonejuzleft?
wadifisaidilovedyou?
wadifisaidimissedyou?

this is very random.
and i tink i shld juz shut up.

2006-03-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

guess theres nothing i can do. so im just gonna let things be and let myself continue feeling guilty. =X

been hoping wishing dreaming and fantasizing alot lately. i wanna go to japan. n i wanna spend my life there quietly. ~~hopefully with someone i love.~~ esp at the country side or somewhere with great scenery n what hope. (i M still dreaming.)

spent the whole of sat sleeping cos i was dead tired and the weather was damn nice. n when i woke up i juz slacked the rest of the night. if only i life was that relaxing.

hrms. nationals this week. the horrors. -shivers-

i
feel
so
numb.

2006-03-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

arghs. guilt-trip.

2006-03-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

pls juz get lost ok.
i duno wad the hell u are trying to do, nor wad u're thinking. but im losing my patience. push it any furthur n i may just walk out and give up bothering alright. stop treating me like that idiot u think im.

2006-03-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

my newest earhole died during my attempt to replace the earstud into a earstick. damn sad. it lastest a pathetic 8 days, which my parents found out and didnt even care. n it juz had to die. erms. basically i juz cant fit the earstick in and it hurts alot now. gonna close it.

constantly reminded every second that schs gonna reopen tmr. sinking horror within that i wasted the hols away. wadever big plans for the hols, 'wait till march hols, and i would accomplish it', nothing even started. not even the simple task of packing my room. the state of mess now is- bad. but i can never motivate myself enough to pack. or get any other work started for that matter.

everything feels so unaccomplished.
work.
and i juz cant imagine the thought of having to live thru ONE whole term.
i duno. maybe im juz scaring myself.
tournies nearing once again.
bleahhhs. ok. shall stop scaring or worrying abt stuffs i got no control over.

and if i make it through the day,
will tomorrow be the same?
am i just running in place?
and if i stumble and i fall,
should i get up and carry on?
will it all just be the same?

2006-03-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

punches photoshop. arghs.
er. i enjoyed dinner n post dinner today. nothing else.
trng was.. i duno. and i realised its abt 2 weeks to nationals and arghs. nvm. shld juz keep those thots to myself.
tiredtired..

i juz wanna sleep and never wake up. ever again. =X

2006-03-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

gosh. i LOVELOVELOVE spotlight! its damn interesting. hahas. no, its not my first time ever there. i juz found it damn interesting todae. too bad i was broke. if not i would have bought loads of things.

hrms. met liqin aft trng at plaza. ate dinner at longjohn. (fastfood again! arghs.) then went to the outdoor mac to supposedly study but. ended up juz talking and lq was overwhelmed by the smoke there. heh. left mac at 8 and went to walk abt. and she decided to that we shld do somethin interesting. but didnt know wad to do. so i went into spotlight to take a look. and the trip there was so fun. i was practically hyper. im so gonna go back there and get the stuff i want! walked arnd a bit more before i came home.

n i reached home juz a few minutes before my parents came home! hahas. saved me the trouble of having to tell them where i went. wheeeee.

damns. its 11 already. i really need to start on my hols hw. but im tireddddd and lazy to do it. arghs. have to wake up early tmr to go down to ccps with my dear yc who didnt really give me a choice whether i wanted to go anot. hope she will provide breakfast. =)

im tired. ~~and the hols are gonna end soon. damnit.~~

ifeellikepunchingsomebody.
it would be simply DISAPPOINTING.
arghs.
shldnt have thot abt it.

2006-03-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

2006-03-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

this has been one SUAY week. but ystd was interestingly-suay though. heh. sprained ankle and had to pull out of pilot pen. sophie substituted me. (thankYOU!) hrms. went down to jnrs trng on tues for fun.. but i wasnt allowed to do anything but stone.. =X had project at peikhees house aft that.. shes so scaryyyy. dun let me syaz and weiBA play the music we wanted. hahas. finally reached home at 10..

wed. went down to acs in the aftnn. and the WHOLE time i was there i only watch one interesting match. my bro's match. shld never ever watch his game again. so nerve-racking. though i tink the ximin gals next to me suffered the most cos i kept whacking them. hahas. left to meet candace at orchard. didnt get to watch jaz and sophies match thoughh.. the way to orchard was. PURE STUPID.
me and charlene(cheryl's supposedly twin, in which we both pangsei-ed her before her match started. =X) were totally clueless of where to head. and cos i was rushing i kept asking her to cab. so aft getting on the bus, we got down and decided to cab. much to our horror, it was near a highway and there was totally NO cabs. so we got back on the next 14.. took to somewhere else and cab. so dumb. and i feel so bad abt it. shessh. hahas.
ohoh. and we passed this street called kay poh street. so interesting. heh.

ohshit. i need to rush off for trng soon. hope my ankle doesnt die on me todae. X)

2006-03-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

ever felt like u dun belong right here, right now?
like everyone arnd u is simply a stranger or a passby, who just comes and goes..
like there is nothing worthy to keep u here..
where hardly anyone knows you even exist, or that nobody will ever care nor give a damn..

and it just comes to a point where. everythings so pointless all you want to do is turn and run away.. and forget it.

2006-03-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

i guess its time to back down n get lost.

2006-03-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

I can still see the light
at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times
even when I lose my mind
But it feels like no one
in the world is listening
and I can't ever seem
to make the right decisions
I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say
I don't know what time it is
or whose the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows
Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think
I know, there she goes
Goodbye for now (I'm not the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin go)
When will we sing
A new song
A new song
We’re still smilin as the day goes by
and how come nobody
ever knows the reasons why
Burry you deep so far
you can't see
If you're like me
who wears a broken
heart on your sleeve
Pains is troubles that
you know so well
Either time don't
It can't or you just won't tell
I'm not the type to say
I told you so
I think the hardest part
of holding on is lettin it go
I don't know what time it is
or whose the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows
Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think I know
there she goes
Goodbye for now (I'm not the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go)
When will we sing
A new song
A new song
And you can sing until
theres no song left (song left)
And I can scream until
the world goes deaf (goes deaf)
For every other word
left unsaid you should
have took the time to
read the sign and
see what it meant
In some ways everybody
feels alone so if the
burden is mine then
I can carry my own
If joy really comes
in the morning time
then I'm gunna sit back
and wait until the
next sun rise
Goodbye for now (I'm no the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go)
When will we sing
A new song
-goodbye for now. POD

2006-03-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

someone wants me to blog abt the mysterious crap that ppl dun understand.
n that same someone wants me to blog cos im finalli feeling hyper today.
and a diff someone is sick of reading the quote abt the 3 kinds of ppl.
some other idiot is asking me stupid questions.
n some funny weird person n i are planning to go pierce ears n i tink shes mad cos she wants 3 holes at a time. gosh. funfun. hahas. x)
n i realise that i have been listening to ppl proclaim how GUAI (cough cough) they are tonight. of which includes a stupid kunehfied guniang-ed GAY.

almost got someone else in trouble when i smsed her n her phone rang in class. watched tennis semis todae. got pangseied by my fren who i was supposed to meet. slacking now. realised its time i keep off certain ppl n i hope i will rmb to.

i know tmr will suck.
yet i dun know y i m gonna bother going to sch.

so used n played out by life.

prove me wrong.
idiot.

2006-02-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

"There are 3 kinds of people in this world, those who can count and those who can't."-unknown
happened to see this quotes when i was web hopping. found it really interesting. hrms yea.

i dun wanna start blogging cos i will only start cursing n swearing abt the unimportance of my life's crap n my life itself.